Busheezzyy

2008-08-16T17:29:00.000-07:00

This is a blog on a cool site out there, those not interested in photography or photoshop design leave now. It's called http://www.brusheezy.com/ and you can download free brushes and templates for photoshop. I found it during my digital photomedia course and it opened up a whole new world of design. It allows you to use images as brushes to create interesting backgrounds or backdrops, or more simply as previewed creative images.

Cravings

2008-08-05T10:00:00.000-07:00

Not that i really enjoy posting this, but like any addict i need to bide my time before i lose my mind. So, cold turkey on biting my nails. They are fairly long as of now, but i'm starting to fold like the corner of a thin surviette in the rapdily growing wind. Someone, inspre me. Provide your years of addiction wisdom before i inevitably convince myself, that like alcoholism, it is a disease.

Some interesting thoughts on us, here, now.

2008-08-04T18:13:00.000-07:00

"The other day i was listening to a song entitled, "Forty Six and Two" by Tool, and decided to see what i could pull from the meaning of this song. What i found was not only extremely intriguing but inspiring as well. To give you scope.
Here lies the lyrics:

My shadow's
Shedding skin and
I've been picking
Scabs again
I'm down
Digging through
My old muscles
Looking for a clue

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions
For a piece to cross me over
Or a word to guide me in
I wanna feel the changes coming down
I wanna know what I've been hiding in

My shadow
Change is coming through my shadow
My shadow's shedding skin
I've been picking
My scabs again

I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic
And insecure delusions

I wanna feel the change consume me,
Feel the outside turning in
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and
Cleansing I've endured within

My shadow
Change is coming
Now is my time
Listen to my muscle memory
Contemplate what I've been clinging to
Forty six and two ahead of me

I choose to live and to
Grow, take and give and to
Move, learn and love and to
Cry, kill and die and to
Be paranoid and to
Lie, hate and fear and to
Do what it takes to move through

I choose to live and to
Lie, kill and give and to
Die, learn and love and to
Do what it takes to step through

See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me

It's deeply rooted in Jungian and Melchizadek theory.

"Basically, it's believed that there are three levels of human evolution and each has it's form of conciousness. There's the 1st level with 44 chromosones. These are primitve people's like the aboriginies in Australia who do not percieve anything outside of themselves. They only see one large conciousness with no distinguishment between organisms. Then there's the second level with 46 chromosones. That is us. We are a chaotic disharmonic conciousness that is basically used as a stepping stone between the first and third levels. The third level is 48 chromosones. (Or 46 & 2, with 2 being the sex chromosones x & y). This is the higher level of conciousness. Our destination.

But this is where the Jungian theory comes in. It is believed that you can not reach this third level of evolution without first delving into yourself and basically cleansing your conciousness for the next jump. That's where the Shadow comes in. The shadow is basically everything about that is unseen that you are uncomfortable with or hate. This is also known as the Aenima. (The album of which this song was released)
The last part of the song sums all of this up..."

"See my shadow changing,
Stretching up and over me
Soften this old armor
Hoping I can clear the way
By stepping through my shadow,
Coming out the other side
Step into the shadow
Forty six and two are just ahead of me"